Real BF...what a downer.

I've been seeing the guy, a real guy. With no money, who actually likes me. All that comes to mind is LOSER LOSER LOSER when I see him. Don't get me wrong, he's really sweet and caring but he cannot afford my wardrobe by any means. He's tall, blonde, somewhat dreamy looking but somewhat awkward.

I left Real Guy at home when I went and saw Formula man. He wanted to meet me late at night and I said what the hell...what's dinner for $142. I saw him, however this time he completely disgusted me. it was around 1 AM and he was hungry so we jumped in his car and drove around for half an hour while I attempted to kindly explain to him that the kitchens happen to close around 11:30. I convinced him of this finally and suggested an all night Korean restaurant.

We sat down, ordered, and my disgust grew. His thick glasses, his hunched back, his strawberry blonde curled hair, his overlaped teeth which showed shen he smiled and leaned his head forward like a chicken; the epitome of a disgusting buffoon.

I asked for my meal to be packed up. Looked at him, got up, took the food and left.

142$ is not worth my dignity...he probably would have short changed me $2 anyways.

S left for Europe, I want him to be back. He seemed so genuine and as though he would be the perfect SD. I will definitely contact him at some point, and call when he gets back. We were never intimate but he did offer to buy me an ipod however his son was in a car accident and he had to rush to the hospital. He called the next day but I couldn't see him.

Joe e-mailed with yet another excuse why he hasn't arranged a trip. I send sweet short e-mail back to 'keep me posted' I'll believe it when it happens! If nothing by the end of August, off with his head...or at least off with the e-mails.

I'm meeting guitar man tomorrow. He's 35 and business owner. He used to be a song writer and used to tour...I suppose I will learn more tomorrow. I'm excited and hope this one works out!

I'm off to get ready to meet my Real Guy. If I do find an SD I think it would be wise to be single. I couldn't hurt another person. NOTE TO SELF: Do not get attached.

xoxo
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